When Your Life Looks Fine, But Your Soul Knows It Isn’t

There was a time in my life where everything was fine, but something in my heart just felt like I wasn’t where I was supposed to be. I wasn’t doing what I was supposed to be doing. It was like the life I had created — and somehow found myself in — was not my life.

I’d heard people say things like that before and never really understood what they meant. And then one day it clicked. It’s like you just go through life doing what you’re told, doing what everyone else is doing… until one day you wake up and you’re like, wait — no. This is not me.

I realised that I don’t think I’m someone who wants to go to work day in and day out, come home, watch TV, make dinner, and repeat the same routine over and over. That’s just not who I am.

When I realised that, I was scared. So scared that I resisted doing anything about it for years. Years and years. I stayed in the same situation, waking up in the same bed with my fiance, the same man I had been with since High School, telling myself, okay, yeah… this is good. I’m safe. I’m comfortable.

But in my heart, there was something calling me. Like, girl… come home. Not that way — this way. Come on.
And I just kept ignoring her.

I wanted to share this for anyone who might be ignoring their own nudge — that quiet pull to change things, to let something go, or to head in a different direction.

Because what you’re holding onto might actually be the cage - the very thing that’s keeping you stuck.

The things is…you don’t actually need to be safe and comfortable. There’s nothing to be safe and comfortable from. The only thing you ever need to be safe from is the life you’re currently in. That’s the real danger. This was one of my biggest realisations. It’s like we trap ourselves inside this perpetual cycle creating the fear, believing we need safety, staying in the comfort zone, and missing out on the life that is actually nourishing for our soul.

Instead, if you listen to that calling and start walking toward what it’s asking of you — no matter what it is — even if it leads you somewhere hard, you’re still going to love it. Because that’s what your soul wants. So it’s actually impossible for you not to love it.

Please hear me again when I say that: it’s impossible for you not to love it. That doesn’t mean there won’t be days that you will be on the ground wheeping, but nevertheless, your soul will feel at home.

Where my soul took me wasn’t what I thought it would be. It wasn’t this amazing life where everything was perfect. I was alone for a long time. I had my head down. I knuckled into work.

But I felt so good every single day.
I felt aligned.

Even though I didn’t have all the things I had before, even though I let a lot go — I felt full.

So just let go of what people are going to think if you follow your heart. It’s not relevant to you.

This life slips by so quickly. And when it does, you’re not going to be worried about what other people thought of you. You’re going to wonder whether you fulfilled the role you came here to play. Whether you fulfilled the promises you made. Whether you came here to serve. Whether you lived through your heart or through your fear.

Don’t let it be your fear that leads you instead of your heart.

Sometimes we hold ourselves in familiar places because nothing is “wrong.” Everything looks good. Everything is fine. But that familiar place can still be a prison — a prison to your soul.

If you’re feeling resistance toward what your soul wants, it might just mean you’ve gotten far from who you really are. And it’s time to come back to her.

For me, when I felt the call to leave, I was so against it. And that showed me how far I had drifted from my true self. I thought I was someone who wanted a normal life, who needed to be looked after, who wanted the same old routine.

It wasn’t until I left that I realised —
I don’t want any of that.

Sometimes the familiar isn’t home.
Sometimes it’s just familiar.

And sometimes, what feels like a safe place is actually a prison to your soul.